No, not really. I don’t really know what “missing home” really means. I guess the part that I “miss” is the comfortability I had in Utah. I had a stable job (wasn’t happy), was blowing off steam with dance class, and had a nice little group of friends that I would hang out with constantly.
This is a free photo that I just googled “missing home” and it couldn’t be more cheesy. Sorry, about that. It’s kind of funny tho.
The overall point is the current situation is great despite the casualties that had to take place. Sure, I don’t have EVERYTHING that I had in Utah, but the fear of leaving a comfortable space has vanished.
I learned in Psychology class that the human mind has an amazing capability to adapt and overcome extreme tragedies. People close to me that have horrible past have said they wouldn’t change anything about the past. Yet, I was worried about not having a job, proper nutrition, or having to live with people. I’m happy now. Sure, I don’t have dance class, but now that means I have to go out and meet latinos here. I have only really had a conversation with one other Latino and it was nice. I digress.
Now, I think I have found a routine that I happen to love and can see myself living for a long time. However, financially that will come to end. I wake up, go to the gym, look for a coffee shop, and write another entry. This is day 2 of finding this routine. Honestly, it’s the exact same thing as what I had in Utah. There’s nothing different other that I try to find a different coffee spot here in Brisbane. It’s so big and vast that you’re bound to find another writing spot.
As for the job searching… It sucks. It brings memories and feelings of my last weeks in Utah when I was looking for a job as well. The rejections only created feelings of despair and worthlessness. I can’t let this feeling get to me. The only viable course of action is to keep applying and not let this feeling ruin my time here in Australia. I’m sipping a delicious cappuccino in the West End part of town, listening to Bachata, and writing in a blog that no one sees. It honestly doesn’t get any better. Currently at Blackstar Coffee. I ordered a cappuccino. Delicious, although it is outdoor seating so if it’s too hot you probably won’t catch me here.