Okay, let’s just recap super quick to where I’m at at this point. Time for bullet points!
- Moved back from Australia
- Broke up with a girl
- Enjoyed being unemployed
- Panicked because I couldn’t find a job
- Moved out without having a job
- New roommate is transgender
- Started dating someone
- Found a job
- Quit the job
- Found a new job
Honestly, I don’t even want to get into all stuff, too boring and emotionally reviving to try and tediously detail what went on with the transition from Australia. I’m currently writing on a cool night on the first of October, after accepting a job that I’m happy to have, but wasn’t the first choice. I mean, what I mean to say is that I was hoping to hear back from another…. Forget it, I don’t want to talk about it.
Let’s talk about how I’ve grown as a person!
Yeah, this shit is way better, more entertaining for all of my readers. I have zero readers.
Well, I am pretty much the most confident person that I know. Yes, I know, super arrogant and cocky sounding, but, let me explain! I have flaws, duh, everyone knows. There’s no point in caring about what anyone thinks of you. Since coming back from Australia there’s been this new mindset that I have unknowingly achieved. It’s a type of attitude that just takes everything in as is, and I’m experiencing as the moment unfolds. There’s no thinking, worrying, anxious thoughts that make my day cumbersome. As simply as thinking of how conversations would go to how I would envision myself in the future, there’s just no more worries. The moment happens as it unfolds.
“It’s so subtle, yet so effective”
I’m not explaining myself well enough to articulate how impactful the change has been. It’s so subtle, yet so effective! The previous relationship ended in an… interesting fashion, and have yet to understand why I’ve grown so bitter about it. Yet, I don’t care enough about it to keep exploring. Though, the benefits that I’ve had from the previous relationship and my stay in Australia have been so beneficial that I can’t simply say anything else but thank the Universe, stars, chakras, etc. for it.
Looking through previous writings it’s extremely reductionist and almost rude to say what is; I was simply young.
My previous mentality riddled my self-esteem and confidence with negative self-talk, negative body-image, overthinking, over-analyzing, fear of unknown, fear of failure, and overall insecurity. I don’t think there was a real moment when I broke free of these thoughts, but I can’t say there was a reason that all this stemmed from. To be honest, I was just young and insecure, nothing more and nothing less.
I hope to be writing more, for future me to know that I’ve already come along way.
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